"The desire to question life comes from life itself, from that part of life which is still hidden. Life provokes us to question. It wants to be admired. As long as it is not, the question remains." - Jean Klein

Just another week in the life of a dancing nerd mystic

1. I recently committed to 1000 days of celibacy.
2. Even more recently, I've become a little...um, boy crazy?
3. Also, a little girl crazy?
4. I feel like I am barely tethered to the earth.
5. My car got broken into and I don't even care?
6. My biggest concern about the car break-in was that I was not very concerned?
7. Also, I knew it was going to happen?
8. Then I came home to 200 skull beads and delicious, delicious cake.

9. Being in love with mystery is awesome.

The Quintessence of Loneliness

I am like a heroin addict
In my longing for a sublime state,

For that ground of Conscious Nothing,
Where the Rose ever
Blooms.

Oh, the Friend
Has done me a great favor
and has so thoroughly ruined my life,

What else would you expect
Seeing God would do!

Out of the ashes of this broken frame
There is a noble rising son pining for death,
Because,

Since we first met, Beloved,
I have become a foreigner
To every world
Except that one
In which there is only You
Or - Me.

Now that the heart has held
That which can never be touched
My subsistence is a blessed
Desolation.

And from that I cry out for more loneliness.

I am lonely.
I am so lonely, dear Beloved,
For the quintessence of Loneliness,

For what is more alone than God?

Hafiz,
What is more pure and alone,

Magnificently Sovereign,
Than God.


~Hafiz (1320-1389)
from "The Gift", Poems by Hafiz, translation by Daniel Ladinsky